I stopped work about 10 years ago after our son David was born. The decision to stop was not easy, I had been toying with the idea for months, maybe even years...
Having a job meant more money for the family of course, I also got a measure of identity and self-esteem from the job title. Although I always felt guilty about leaving the children in the care of my mum and maid, the pull factors for staying home were not as strong. My mum felt I should work because she always did and after having spent so much on my education, it was payback time. Anyway, she was around to "take charge" of things at home, etc etc.
My boss knew the dilemma I was in and offered me a part-time job after maternity. Unfortunately David was often sick, wheezing and coughing. Straight after I went back to work, he fell ill and had to be nebulised every 4 hours around the clock. Part time work just did not pan out and I resigned.
After resigning, we shared with Pastor Chris Chia about the sense of "insecurity" I felt over leaving the job. That was when he said "when you make a decision where you have to trust God more, it's a good decision". Like the Psalmist, we have tasted and testify that the Lord is good.
Psalm 34:1-10
I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lips.
My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.
I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
